Ok...so I am trying to keep up with this at least a few times a week. Not being very successful. That's how things feel right now throughout my life. I am having difficulty making good choices when it comes to food. I am not sure why. It could be that I am feeling sad and sorry for myself. I am not sure. I think I am also having the opportunity to actually reflect on myself more often now. Jill has been feeling better and getting out more, which I am so happy about. But it gives me more time to have to think and focus on myself. Something I don't particularly like to do. I struggle with the notion that I may be alone for the rest of my life. If that is God's plan, then I accept it (but I can't pretend to be happy about it). I know that good things come to those who wait, but how long does one have to wait. How can I be happy without feeling so lost and empty inside? Is is possible?
I head back to Florida on Friday. I am taking Scooter with me after the fiasco of leaving him home with Jill the last time. Maybe the break from work will be good for me. I think I need to rejuvenate myself.
Until tomorrow......
1 comment:
carrie you are beautiful, stop trying to fix yourself....enjoy life everyday and accept the past for what it is the past.....you only have today....Do fun things you already are too responsible!!!! Responsiblity comes easy for you the fun things come hard....stop judging yourself!Work hard play hard and accept. Losing weight will not change all those things you don't like in life. to fall in love is to fall in love with the person inside skinny fat or otherwise...I guess I want to say I love you because you are you nomatter what size you are.....If you do want to lose weight its a life long battle make it fun.....Hope this finds you doing good....Love Aunt Joy
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