Well Jill is in the hospital again. I feel bad because I have been very moody lately. Itsjust very difficult. I know she feels like she isn't doing anything but she does more than she thinks. Sometimes I feel like I am not doing anything right around the house. Ok...so I like piles and they are sometimes all over the place...well most of the time all over the place. I just feel like I don't have enough space and that I don't have space that is mine. She is always worried that her mom is going to have a comment to say and then I get the backlash from that. Living in a roommate situation is so difficult. I enjoy living with Jill, plus I am not sure how many people would put up with me for this long. Anyways, maybe we both just need a little break. I am looking to meet some more people up here. I still don't have any friends that I hang out with besides Jill. The people I work with I haven't done anything with. I am not too good at this meeting new people thing. Match.com doesn't really seem to be working for me. I don't know may be there is something with me that I need to work on and thats why I can't seem to meet anybody. Weight loss is going ok....this past week and this week has been rough. I have been stressed and when that happens I eat. However I don't have much money (none) so I am sure that I will lose a couple of pounds. Unfortunately, I have learned my mother's ways in budgeting and am terrible at it. It makes living stress-free difficult. Living paycheck to paycheck is not fun...I am almost 30....I should be doing better than this. Hopefully I can get on track. Needless to say worrying about money doesn't help the anxiety situation....it actually has increased my anxiety attacks. Not a good thing. I hope that Jill feels better....I worry about her...Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers. Until later.......