So I am getting ready to go to bed and I have been reflecting over the past few hours about today. Everyday is a battle as I am driving around to my clients's homes. Sometimes I am not even hungry and I have thoughts about fast food...you don't realize how strong the urge can get. I totally understand how a drug addict feels when they are trying to resist drugs or alcohol.
I have been doing better. I am on Herbalife. It is a meal replacement diet. I am doing well on it. I have actually stuck to it for longer than 3 weeks. That inself is an accomplishment. And with each pound that comes off I start to feel just a little bit better. I know that I need to do this not only for me but for Jill. I am trying to find some physical activities that I can do that will keep my attention. I went to a martial arts center today. I think I might give it a try. I also have thought about starting to ride a bike. Although, I don't think that I have been on a bike since I was a kid. Oh my and all these hills!!!!!! I definitely would get a good work out :)
As I get ready to sign off and go to bed, I wish there was something I could do to help Jill sleep at night. I worry about her. I wish that there was a magic solution...as I tell my kids in therapy ~ here is your wand and if you try real hard, you can make any wish you wish come true....its just up to you. Until tomorrow........
2 comments:
Carrie,
I know you can do it. I can't help but remember when you lost all that weight in the first place. Watching my sister struggle with it, I know it is hard, but I also know you can do it! I always admired your strength.
Love,Jessi
Carrie What a wonderful Gift you want to give to your friend Jill, she is blessed to have you as a friend. I can relate to the life long battle with weight. You are a Beautiful Girl!!!! No matter what you weigh......You can control the weight problem with alot of hard work and perseverance.....History tells me you have both those qualities.....Educate yourself on what it takes to accomplish your weight goals and deceide how best you can make this happen for YOU! Be kind to yourself and give yourself time.....I would suspect that if you address the emotional need to eat when you are not hungry the weight will take care of itself....Ha! thats the hard part.....thinking of you often and wishing you great success in your battle.....
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